Waiting

I am waiting not-so-patiently for my blood results from Friday.  I am anxious and nervous and scared. I feel like vomitting. But not the mornign sickness kind!

I called my Ob's at 8:15 am and was told the results weren't in yet and to try back in the afternoon or tomorrow.  WTF?  I went Friday, the test was probably processed Friday night or Saturday. They fax teh reports quickly I would think.  So here I wait.  Until 1:30 or so.  I start work at 12:30.  Should I wait until the AM in case it is bad news? Or should I just deal with it right away. Better yet, why not think positively and say that the number is gonna be great?? 

I was looking back on some past pregnancy info--I have it all documented in an excel file. Pregnancy #3, the one with the heartbeat, I got my first BFP at about 20dpo after my period had come and gone.  On 21dpo my hcg was 143 and went to 296 in the 48 hours. At 5w6d we saw a hearbeat of 110. This right here is the reason to not be pessimistic. The big difference is that I did not get a period. I got my bfp at a respectable 12dpo or so. I really don't know when I ovualted so I could be more or less DPO than I am guessing.

My symptoms come and go. Saturday they were gone, Sunday they are back. Monday morning, not so much in the boob department. Woke up 4 times to pee last night. Very tired yesterday. Just trying to take it easy. I was crampy a couple of times yesterday, lower back. I have cramps in my sides as I type this. Not too bad but it is just so hard to think that they are the good cramps.

OH afternoon, please come soon!