It's good to be optimisitc. Since I got this BFP I have been very optimistic and looking forward to November. I kept saying WHEN and not IF. I had a few moments of doubt but my good symptoms and excellent numbers and making it to 6 weeks without any spotting, well I was very optimistic.
Today I was getting ready to go see my trainer. Yes I am still working out a bit and seeing my trainer. This was all part of the being positive thing. I had inserted my prometrium around 10:00. At 12:30 I peed and wiped and was very surprised to see the pink on my tp. At first I was calm and thought, this is nothing. I wiped more and more came. So I cancelled my trainer and called my OB who said Bedrest and will see me Friday Morning.
I am really hoping that I just bumped my cervix inserting those damn supossitories. But the cramping has me worried.
FML
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Tuesday, March 29, 2011
Weepy
I am weepy. I am on a real emotional rollar coaster. But that's okay, I'll take it.
Yesterday I almost came home sick. I was overtired (GRRRRR 5:30 am shifts) and I was Nauseous. Of course when I told the Captain he cheered. Last night and today were better but I tried to eat a little better. This morning I had grapefruit and steel cut oats. Yum. This breakfast also helped with a little issue I had the last few days...constipation. I know TMI but it wouldn't be me if I didn't talk about the pooh.
During week 4 and 5 I was quite surprised and happy that I wasn't overly bloated and gassy and constipated. Though of course it worried me as well. This was always a big problem for me. The non-bloat probably had to do with my healthy eating habits. So this is good, right? Well leave it to me to start eating crap because I am pregnant. Why do I continue to sabotage myself? Luckily for me I met with Betty-Lou, my trainer, yesterday and she knocked some sense back into me. Today is a new day and a healthy start. And all I can say to that is "AHHHH! That's releif."
I don't think I noted my first ultrasound. It is next Thursday, April the 7th at 2:45. Part of me was bummed that I wasn't getting one this week, but that is probably for the best. I will be 7w5d next Thursday and we should see more. A heartbeat will be there. Maybe a baby shape? Not just a bean? Maybe twins? I dreamt last night of an ultrasound with a baby shape and a heartbeat. I liked that dream. Then on Monday the 11th I will have my first pre-natal appointment.
Loving every minute...
Yesterday I almost came home sick. I was overtired (GRRRRR 5:30 am shifts) and I was Nauseous. Of course when I told the Captain he cheered. Last night and today were better but I tried to eat a little better. This morning I had grapefruit and steel cut oats. Yum. This breakfast also helped with a little issue I had the last few days...constipation. I know TMI but it wouldn't be me if I didn't talk about the pooh.
During week 4 and 5 I was quite surprised and happy that I wasn't overly bloated and gassy and constipated. Though of course it worried me as well. This was always a big problem for me. The non-bloat probably had to do with my healthy eating habits. So this is good, right? Well leave it to me to start eating crap because I am pregnant. Why do I continue to sabotage myself? Luckily for me I met with Betty-Lou, my trainer, yesterday and she knocked some sense back into me. Today is a new day and a healthy start. And all I can say to that is "AHHHH! That's releif."
I don't think I noted my first ultrasound. It is next Thursday, April the 7th at 2:45. Part of me was bummed that I wasn't getting one this week, but that is probably for the best. I will be 7w5d next Thursday and we should see more. A heartbeat will be there. Maybe a baby shape? Not just a bean? Maybe twins? I dreamt last night of an ultrasound with a baby shape and a heartbeat. I liked that dream. Then on Monday the 11th I will have my first pre-natal appointment.
Loving every minute...
Saturday, March 26, 2011
6Weeks!!
I did not end up telling my bosses. They weren't there and after speaking with my two co-workers they suggested I wait. I will try. I have to stop talking about it. I have told 6 people at work. I am sure I can trust them but it's easy to let things slip. Hell, even my own family Doctor told my Mom about one of my pregnancies before I did!
I am feeling okay-stomach troubles from time to time. Moody. Tired. Heartburn. Bitchy. Zitty. Glowing.
That last one was compliments of the Captain today. He said I was glowing. I responded, "No-I am greasy!" But that's part of the glow!!
I am feeling okay-stomach troubles from time to time. Moody. Tired. Heartburn. Bitchy. Zitty. Glowing.
That last one was compliments of the Captain today. He said I was glowing. I responded, "No-I am greasy!" But that's part of the glow!!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Wowzers!
Yesterday's morning post was about the possibility of twins. LOL This was even before I got my Beta results back.
7500+
At 24 DPO they were over 7500. On Betabase for 24DPO on the Twin chart is shows an average of about 6490. I know I haven't been too high since the beginning but I am hopeful, nonetheless.
So a recap: 17DPO--->275
21DPO--->1527 doubling time of 31 hours
24DPO--->7500+doubling time of 40 hours
I can't get past my numbers.
Now let's talk about sleep. I can fall asleep by 9pm but I wake up at 5:30/6:00am. Which really is enough time to sleep, over 8 hours. But then I am up early and tired by 6pm. Today is a long day with a group meeting from 11:30-2:30 and then work from 4:30-8:30.
I am telling my employer today. I just think that with my history (which I have shared with them) they should know asap. Part of me also knows I need to stop telling people. I need to save this secreat! I need to have my family know first. I can't wait to tell my and his parents. I am looking forward to Easter dinner and I am going to leave the ultrasound picture on the fridge for my Sissy in Law to find out. Oooo I just got weepy thinking about it. As for the Captains Siblings, I don't know how to make it as special for them.
7500+
At 24 DPO they were over 7500. On Betabase for 24DPO on the Twin chart is shows an average of about 6490. I know I haven't been too high since the beginning but I am hopeful, nonetheless.
So a recap: 17DPO--->275
21DPO--->1527 doubling time of 31 hours
24DPO--->7500+doubling time of 40 hours
I can't get past my numbers.
Now let's talk about sleep. I can fall asleep by 9pm but I wake up at 5:30/6:00am. Which really is enough time to sleep, over 8 hours. But then I am up early and tired by 6pm. Today is a long day with a group meeting from 11:30-2:30 and then work from 4:30-8:30.
I am telling my employer today. I just think that with my history (which I have shared with them) they should know asap. Part of me also knows I need to stop telling people. I need to save this secreat! I need to have my family know first. I can't wait to tell my and his parents. I am looking forward to Easter dinner and I am going to leave the ultrasound picture on the fridge for my Sissy in Law to find out. Oooo I just got weepy thinking about it. As for the Captains Siblings, I don't know how to make it as special for them.
Wednesday, March 23, 2011
Could it be?
Maybe I am just being silly and obsessive but I kind of think this may be twins. I really can't explain it. My hcg is not ridiculously high. My symptoms are definately not overwhelming. But something inside my heart and mind says Twins.
On one hand twins would be great. I could be done with babymaking after they are born. But twins would be hard for me to carry. I am already 75 pounds (used to be 100) overweight. I am only 4'10" with my shoes on. So how high risk would I be? Would I be able to go to school all summer? What would life with twins be like?
I am so over the moon in love with this pregnancy! I am 5.5 weeks along and have had no issues. No bleeding, no spotting (well just the little implantation spotting) and I generally feel optimistic about this whole damn thing. I did have a lapse a few days ago waiting for my beta results. I started to not feel pregnant and that scared me. My books say that loss of symptoms is doomsday. But other research suggests that symptoms come and go this early on. Hopefully by week 6 or 7 they will be ever present.
I can't wait for my ultrasound to be booked. Hopefully by tomorrow Tammy will have booked it. The Captain may be laid off next week, so in a way that is good. He won't have to call in to work to come to my ultrasound.
So all in all I am very happy and optimistic. I have never before felt this way during a pregnancy for so long. I have known for almost 2 weeks! I am enjoying every moment of this journey!
On one hand twins would be great. I could be done with babymaking after they are born. But twins would be hard for me to carry. I am already 75 pounds (used to be 100) overweight. I am only 4'10" with my shoes on. So how high risk would I be? Would I be able to go to school all summer? What would life with twins be like?
I am so over the moon in love with this pregnancy! I am 5.5 weeks along and have had no issues. No bleeding, no spotting (well just the little implantation spotting) and I generally feel optimistic about this whole damn thing. I did have a lapse a few days ago waiting for my beta results. I started to not feel pregnant and that scared me. My books say that loss of symptoms is doomsday. But other research suggests that symptoms come and go this early on. Hopefully by week 6 or 7 they will be ever present.
I can't wait for my ultrasound to be booked. Hopefully by tomorrow Tammy will have booked it. The Captain may be laid off next week, so in a way that is good. He won't have to call in to work to come to my ultrasound.
So all in all I am very happy and optimistic. I have never before felt this way during a pregnancy for so long. I have known for almost 2 weeks! I am enjoying every moment of this journey!
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Worth the Wait!
1527!!!
Doubling time of 31 hours. Over a 500% increase. Holy Shit!
I feel great about this. I feel calm and positive and hopeful. The Capt'n and me started talking about how we will tell everyone. I don't think I can wait until Easter to tell my parents or his. I see his mom a few times a week. He says now to wait until after the ultrasound. Which should be early next week!
Before I called for my results I felt sick. Not the "I'm so nervous I could vomit." sick but the "I'm pregnant" nausea. I had eaten already so I knew it wasn't hunger. So I drank some water and felt somewhat better. Now I have been hungry all day but don't know what I want! I made some baked mac and cheese and ate a ton but now I am very hungry again.
Now I wait for the final beta results. And then the ultrasound. But after today I have a total sense of calm. Well, not really a total sense of calm. When Tammy told me my results she indicated that the doctor wanted to see them come down more. I said "wait a minute, I am NOT haveing a miscarriage!" She apologized and I could tell she felt bad. I repeated the number because I couldn't beleive it. I then told her how good that was seeing that the number from 3.5 days prior was 275! She said that was great and told me to get one more draw and then she would set up my u/s and first prenatal.
So another day I am pregnant! This has been awesome. Still the best March 15th ever....
Doubling time of 31 hours. Over a 500% increase. Holy Shit!
I feel great about this. I feel calm and positive and hopeful. The Capt'n and me started talking about how we will tell everyone. I don't think I can wait until Easter to tell my parents or his. I see his mom a few times a week. He says now to wait until after the ultrasound. Which should be early next week!
Before I called for my results I felt sick. Not the "I'm so nervous I could vomit." sick but the "I'm pregnant" nausea. I had eaten already so I knew it wasn't hunger. So I drank some water and felt somewhat better. Now I have been hungry all day but don't know what I want! I made some baked mac and cheese and ate a ton but now I am very hungry again.
Now I wait for the final beta results. And then the ultrasound. But after today I have a total sense of calm. Well, not really a total sense of calm. When Tammy told me my results she indicated that the doctor wanted to see them come down more. I said "wait a minute, I am NOT haveing a miscarriage!" She apologized and I could tell she felt bad. I repeated the number because I couldn't beleive it. I then told her how good that was seeing that the number from 3.5 days prior was 275! She said that was great and told me to get one more draw and then she would set up my u/s and first prenatal.
So another day I am pregnant! This has been awesome. Still the best March 15th ever....
Monday, March 21, 2011
Waiting
I am waiting not-so-patiently for my blood results from Friday. I am anxious and nervous and scared. I feel like vomitting. But not the mornign sickness kind!
I called my Ob's at 8:15 am and was told the results weren't in yet and to try back in the afternoon or tomorrow. WTF? I went Friday, the test was probably processed Friday night or Saturday. They fax teh reports quickly I would think. So here I wait. Until 1:30 or so. I start work at 12:30. Should I wait until the AM in case it is bad news? Or should I just deal with it right away. Better yet, why not think positively and say that the number is gonna be great??
I was looking back on some past pregnancy info--I have it all documented in an excel file. Pregnancy #3, the one with the heartbeat, I got my first BFP at about 20dpo after my period had come and gone. On 21dpo my hcg was 143 and went to 296 in the 48 hours. At 5w6d we saw a hearbeat of 110. This right here is the reason to not be pessimistic. The big difference is that I did not get a period. I got my bfp at a respectable 12dpo or so. I really don't know when I ovualted so I could be more or less DPO than I am guessing.
My symptoms come and go. Saturday they were gone, Sunday they are back. Monday morning, not so much in the boob department. Woke up 4 times to pee last night. Very tired yesterday. Just trying to take it easy. I was crampy a couple of times yesterday, lower back. I have cramps in my sides as I type this. Not too bad but it is just so hard to think that they are the good cramps.
OH afternoon, please come soon!
I called my Ob's at 8:15 am and was told the results weren't in yet and to try back in the afternoon or tomorrow. WTF? I went Friday, the test was probably processed Friday night or Saturday. They fax teh reports quickly I would think. So here I wait. Until 1:30 or so. I start work at 12:30. Should I wait until the AM in case it is bad news? Or should I just deal with it right away. Better yet, why not think positively and say that the number is gonna be great??
I was looking back on some past pregnancy info--I have it all documented in an excel file. Pregnancy #3, the one with the heartbeat, I got my first BFP at about 20dpo after my period had come and gone. On 21dpo my hcg was 143 and went to 296 in the 48 hours. At 5w6d we saw a hearbeat of 110. This right here is the reason to not be pessimistic. The big difference is that I did not get a period. I got my bfp at a respectable 12dpo or so. I really don't know when I ovualted so I could be more or less DPO than I am guessing.
My symptoms come and go. Saturday they were gone, Sunday they are back. Monday morning, not so much in the boob department. Woke up 4 times to pee last night. Very tired yesterday. Just trying to take it easy. I was crampy a couple of times yesterday, lower back. I have cramps in my sides as I type this. Not too bad but it is just so hard to think that they are the good cramps.
OH afternoon, please come soon!
Saturday, March 19, 2011
5 weeks!
I went for another Beta hCG yesterday but won't get the results until Monday. I am really nervous about these results. They are the ones that make it or break it! I also took a clear blue digital with conception indicator. It said Pregnant-2-3. Which means I am 2-3 weeks since conception. This would be right on. I found the beta levels the test use to determine weeks: 1-2 weeks 25, 2-3 200 and 3+ 20,000!! I was all ready to run out and buy another test to see if it would say 3+ today but now I am glad I didn't waste the 20 bucks.
Yesterday I was a little bummed and today a little too. Some symptoms have lessened, mainly boob pain. It wasn't very much to begin with, just a slight tenderness. Now I can poke them and squeeze and for the most part nothing. But then it will come and go. I am still peeing quite a bit. I am EXTREMELY tired. by 12:30 today I couldn't stop yawning. Yes, the 5:30 am shift is early but usually I am not this tired. The only thing that worries me that is that the symptoms are a by-product of the progesterone.
So being a nervous nelly I googles loss of symptoms at 5 weeks. I saw many posts regarding those who symptoms fell at 5 weeks only to return within the next 3 weeks at full force. I hope that I am one of those ladies.
Only 36 hours or so until I find out.
Yesterday I was a little bummed and today a little too. Some symptoms have lessened, mainly boob pain. It wasn't very much to begin with, just a slight tenderness. Now I can poke them and squeeze and for the most part nothing. But then it will come and go. I am still peeing quite a bit. I am EXTREMELY tired. by 12:30 today I couldn't stop yawning. Yes, the 5:30 am shift is early but usually I am not this tired. The only thing that worries me that is that the symptoms are a by-product of the progesterone.
So being a nervous nelly I googles loss of symptoms at 5 weeks. I saw many posts regarding those who symptoms fell at 5 weeks only to return within the next 3 weeks at full force. I hope that I am one of those ladies.
Only 36 hours or so until I find out.
Wednesday, March 16, 2011
And the number is......drumroll please....
275!!
For 17dpo I think this is a great number. In the past my numbers start dismally. Even tho Dr. H said he wanted to see it at 600 or so, from my research 275 seems just great for 17dpo. So I will go again Friday after work and then wait 'patiently' over the weekend for the results.
I worked with my personal trainer today. She could see how tired I was after working all day and we just did strength training, at a lower intensity. I felt better after my workout and went and got groceries. I got home and could barely put my groceries away. I was so freaking tired. I went and started to watch my recorded show of GLEE but the Captain never adjusted the time on the PVR and therefore, my show was not recorded. Hopefully I can grab it on-line.
So symptoms for today:
**tired**
**weepy**
**dumb (LOL)**
**boobs tender**
**nausea**
**heartburn**
Still positive, still happy, can't wait....
For 17dpo I think this is a great number. In the past my numbers start dismally. Even tho Dr. H said he wanted to see it at 600 or so, from my research 275 seems just great for 17dpo. So I will go again Friday after work and then wait 'patiently' over the weekend for the results.
I worked with my personal trainer today. She could see how tired I was after working all day and we just did strength training, at a lower intensity. I felt better after my workout and went and got groceries. I got home and could barely put my groceries away. I was so freaking tired. I went and started to watch my recorded show of GLEE but the Captain never adjusted the time on the PVR and therefore, my show was not recorded. Hopefully I can grab it on-line.
So symptoms for today:
**tired**
**weepy**
**dumb (LOL)**
**boobs tender**
**nausea**
**heartburn**
Still positive, still happy, can't wait....
Tuesday, March 15, 2011
In love with her OBGYN
Not in that way! he is just so happy and friendly and positive. He was quite happy with my situation.
The nurse on the other hand was very blah. I told her my story and she didn't crack a smile. I think my story is awesome and I love telling it. Oh Well--she hears about BFP's each day!
So Dr. H prescribed me Progestone just in case, due to my short LP. I really think it would be too late now but I will do whatever I have to, even stick 4 pills a day up my Woo.
I had blood drawn for a my Beta hCG and will call tomorrow for the results. I will go again Friday and possibly Monday. Then he will schedule me a trans vag (more things up my woo) for THAT Friday or the Monday. Then I will start my monthly appointments with him. :)
I went off the Glumetz.a and he will probably do my GD test earlier. I am going to ask Dr PXS for a Rx for a glucose meter and then I can start monitoring. I will continue to eat healthy and excercise and that will help as well.
Heartburn and nausea are here. Boobs are hurting on and off. Peeing more. Tired. Back ache. Good times.
The nurse on the other hand was very blah. I told her my story and she didn't crack a smile. I think my story is awesome and I love telling it. Oh Well--she hears about BFP's each day!
So Dr. H prescribed me Progestone just in case, due to my short LP. I really think it would be too late now but I will do whatever I have to, even stick 4 pills a day up my Woo.
I had blood drawn for a my Beta hCG and will call tomorrow for the results. I will go again Friday and possibly Monday. Then he will schedule me a trans vag (more things up my woo) for THAT Friday or the Monday. Then I will start my monthly appointments with him. :)
I went off the Glumetz.a and he will probably do my GD test earlier. I am going to ask Dr PXS for a Rx for a glucose meter and then I can start monitoring. I will continue to eat healthy and excercise and that will help as well.
Heartburn and nausea are here. Boobs are hurting on and off. Peeing more. Tired. Back ache. Good times.
Getting Darker!
Yesterday I wrote that I am 4w0d but actually I am probably 4w3d today as I had one calculation wrong. Of course I really won't know until my first ultrasound. My due date will be around November 19-21. EEEKKK
I had been testing each day with $store tests and the lines don't really get much darker. It was kinda depressing. So I went and threw $16 away on 2 First Responses. I woke at 4:30 this morning (Insomnia?) and at 5:15 I got up and POAS and watched. The line came slowly and faintly and my heart was sinking but soon enough it was darker and darker. I compared to my one from 2 days ago and it seemed darker. I was satisfied and went back to bed. I couldn't sleep. I gave thanks to the Lord for giving me a BFP after AF was late. I told Him I was ready for this journey and prayed for good outcomes. I couldn't fall back to sleep so now I am up and blogging, drinking a jasmine tea. As well, my test is so DARK!
My appointment is today and I am very excited.
I had been testing each day with $store tests and the lines don't really get much darker. It was kinda depressing. So I went and threw $16 away on 2 First Responses. I woke at 4:30 this morning (Insomnia?) and at 5:15 I got up and POAS and watched. The line came slowly and faintly and my heart was sinking but soon enough it was darker and darker. I compared to my one from 2 days ago and it seemed darker. I was satisfied and went back to bed. I couldn't sleep. I gave thanks to the Lord for giving me a BFP after AF was late. I told Him I was ready for this journey and prayed for good outcomes. I couldn't fall back to sleep so now I am up and blogging, drinking a jasmine tea. As well, my test is so DARK!
My appointment is today and I am very excited.
Monday, March 14, 2011
4w0d
WOW! I don't think I've ever known I was PG when I was only 4 weeks(and been late). It's neat but nerve racking as well. It's going to be a long 9 8 months! I am not complaining. I have been waiting 3 years for this. I have been waiting 8 years to become a parent. We are ready for this.
Last night we had a family get together! We Skyped with my parents in Arizona and it was very difficult to not spill the beans. BUT I have a goal to wait the 9weeks until Easter and the last year Goals have been how I have acheived success!
When I found out my Ob appointment--you know the one to start fertility treatments--was scheduled for March 15th, I KNEW I would have a good March 15th this year. Last year was okay as well. But this year will be great. It is ending my Ides of March curse. My hope had been that I would already be pregnant when I went in. This is so cool.
I am also happy about how positive I have been. Yes, I am having issues about the lines on my HPT's not getting dark enough, even though they are darker each day. And I had a dream that I took my digital, with conception indicator and the results said Pregnant and it showed an hcg of 206. I think it will be great if that is my initial number tomorrow. Me and my dreams.
Last night we had a family get together! We Skyped with my parents in Arizona and it was very difficult to not spill the beans. BUT I have a goal to wait the 9weeks until Easter and the last year Goals have been how I have acheived success!
When I found out my Ob appointment--you know the one to start fertility treatments--was scheduled for March 15th, I KNEW I would have a good March 15th this year. Last year was okay as well. But this year will be great. It is ending my Ides of March curse. My hope had been that I would already be pregnant when I went in. This is so cool.
I am also happy about how positive I have been. Yes, I am having issues about the lines on my HPT's not getting dark enough, even though they are darker each day. And I had a dream that I took my digital, with conception indicator and the results said Pregnant and it showed an hcg of 206. I think it will be great if that is my initial number tomorrow. Me and my dreams.
Sunday, March 13, 2011
....There's More...
BFP!
After work Thursday night I POAS from the $store. I saw a line, within the 10 minute time frame. I eagerly waited to tell the Captain. I see-sawed if I should wait until Tuesday or what. But you know me, I can't keep this in! I showed him the test. He saw the line. But within an hour it seemed to be a grey evaporation line. I begged the Captain to go get me a First.Response test, as they are probably the best tests ever. he said NO, he didn't want to go out. Oh well, I had a $store test for the am and I would just use that.
I went to bed at 7:30! I was exhausted! I woke at 9pm to pee and lo and behold, there was a FRER test waiting for me. I wanted to wait til the am to use it. I tossed and turned on and off all night. Everytime I woke with my thoughts, I just would think "It's not going to be positive. This would be too good to be true."
Friday March 11 @4:30 am. I was working the 5:30 shift so I usually get up at 4 am. However, I'd overslept and woke at 4:30. I quickly peed on my stick. At first it seemed the colour passed over the "test" line and didn't stop. Then after a minute I thought I saw something. I had to get ready fast so I jumped in the shower. When I got out there were TWO lines on the test, although light, still a definite positive. I was so excited. I left it out for the Captain to see.
On Friday evening I bought 6 more $store tests so I could do one each morning and one each afternoon. I also have a ClearBlue Digital with "Conception Indicator" that I am saving for later, not sure when but, later. Anyways, I got home and PIC and drop some peepee onto the test and within 3 minutes I had a definite, faint positive.
Saturday morning, approximately 14dpo. I POAS and PIC and use both a FRER and a $store test. The FRER line came up fairly fast but at first I thought it was lighter than the day before and started to bum out. Then I could see that it was indeed darker! This is when I really started to get excited. The $store test was also positive and darker then the test from the afternoon before.
I didn't really have major symptoms before my BFP but there are a few things to note.
On Friday March 4, just 4-6 days after ovulation, I was working out when my right side started to really pinch and pull. I worked through it, thinking it could just be work out pain. Another day shortly there after, I had the same pinching and pulling on both sides at the same time. Part of me is excited for this but part of me worries that implantation happened where it shouldn't.
Throughout the last 2 weeks, on a couple of different occasions, I would turn over in bed and get the "pull" feeling in my sides, near my ovaries. This has been a symptom for almost each pregnancy. But I tried not to get too excited as it's happened when I haven't been pregnant too.
In the last week I have had a headache everyday. Kind of sinus like. I only took regular Tyle.nol but one day I had aches and pains due to my work out so I took one Ibupro.phen.
My skin is oily. My gums were swollen the one night. I was semi-constipated for a day but I had taken an iron pill the night before, not knowing I was PG. My breasts seem bigger and at times will throb or be tender. I am not really peeing more all the time but during the day I seem to be. I am more tired. When eating I get full fast and then once I am full, thinking of food makes me quesy (not like me, believe me). When I get up in the morning I am very hungry, not just hungry, LOL. Overall, I want my symptoms to increase day by day. I will not be upset if I vomit. I have said it before, I will gladly take any morning sickness that comes my way!
If I remember correctly my symptoms usually came in stronger after the 4 week mark. Of course many times I would be farther along than 3w5d when I found out. Almost every other time I had a period before my BFP. I am extremely thankful that my prayers were answered on this one. I have asked God many times to give me a BFP after my period is late. And this time my period was technically late, as I generally start at 11dpo.
The Captain and I are excited but cautious as well. I told him that we need to enjoy each moment and act as if the only outcome will be a healthy baby. I have started to plan to garage sale with my neighbour for bargains. I am looking forward to finishing my degree while on MAT leave. It shouldn't be hard, I'll have lots of baby sitters, 2 nieces and 2 Auntie's will gladly babysit. The Grandma's will babysit. The Grandpa's too!
I can't wait to tell our families the news. I am planning on Easter sunday. I will be just shy of 9 weeks. I am positive we will have seen the heartbeat(s?) twice. I have told 3 outside people plus my On-line community. I told my trainer, cuz I want her to take it easy on me. I told another supervisor who I really am fond of and I told an employee who I really trust and have come to admire. I want to tell Rachel and probably will tomorrow!
I will be telling my boss when I have my first ultrasound, so probably in 2 weeks. If I can hold out that long. I always see it as job protection when I am pregnant. I want to reassure them that I will stick it out to the end.
I am just so confident this time. Not cocky. Not over. Just a really good feeling.
And today's $store test had a darker line than yesterday! That's a good thing.
I went to bed at 7:30! I was exhausted! I woke at 9pm to pee and lo and behold, there was a FRER test waiting for me. I wanted to wait til the am to use it. I tossed and turned on and off all night. Everytime I woke with my thoughts, I just would think "It's not going to be positive. This would be too good to be true."
Friday March 11 @4:30 am. I was working the 5:30 shift so I usually get up at 4 am. However, I'd overslept and woke at 4:30. I quickly peed on my stick. At first it seemed the colour passed over the "test" line and didn't stop. Then after a minute I thought I saw something. I had to get ready fast so I jumped in the shower. When I got out there were TWO lines on the test, although light, still a definite positive. I was so excited. I left it out for the Captain to see.
On Friday evening I bought 6 more $store tests so I could do one each morning and one each afternoon. I also have a ClearBlue Digital with "Conception Indicator" that I am saving for later, not sure when but, later. Anyways, I got home and PIC and drop some peepee onto the test and within 3 minutes I had a definite, faint positive.
Saturday morning, approximately 14dpo. I POAS and PIC and use both a FRER and a $store test. The FRER line came up fairly fast but at first I thought it was lighter than the day before and started to bum out. Then I could see that it was indeed darker! This is when I really started to get excited. The $store test was also positive and darker then the test from the afternoon before.
I didn't really have major symptoms before my BFP but there are a few things to note.
On Friday March 4, just 4-6 days after ovulation, I was working out when my right side started to really pinch and pull. I worked through it, thinking it could just be work out pain. Another day shortly there after, I had the same pinching and pulling on both sides at the same time. Part of me is excited for this but part of me worries that implantation happened where it shouldn't.
Throughout the last 2 weeks, on a couple of different occasions, I would turn over in bed and get the "pull" feeling in my sides, near my ovaries. This has been a symptom for almost each pregnancy. But I tried not to get too excited as it's happened when I haven't been pregnant too.
In the last week I have had a headache everyday. Kind of sinus like. I only took regular Tyle.nol but one day I had aches and pains due to my work out so I took one Ibupro.phen.
My skin is oily. My gums were swollen the one night. I was semi-constipated for a day but I had taken an iron pill the night before, not knowing I was PG. My breasts seem bigger and at times will throb or be tender. I am not really peeing more all the time but during the day I seem to be. I am more tired. When eating I get full fast and then once I am full, thinking of food makes me quesy (not like me, believe me). When I get up in the morning I am very hungry, not just hungry, LOL. Overall, I want my symptoms to increase day by day. I will not be upset if I vomit. I have said it before, I will gladly take any morning sickness that comes my way!
If I remember correctly my symptoms usually came in stronger after the 4 week mark. Of course many times I would be farther along than 3w5d when I found out. Almost every other time I had a period before my BFP. I am extremely thankful that my prayers were answered on this one. I have asked God many times to give me a BFP after my period is late. And this time my period was technically late, as I generally start at 11dpo.
The Captain and I are excited but cautious as well. I told him that we need to enjoy each moment and act as if the only outcome will be a healthy baby. I have started to plan to garage sale with my neighbour for bargains. I am looking forward to finishing my degree while on MAT leave. It shouldn't be hard, I'll have lots of baby sitters, 2 nieces and 2 Auntie's will gladly babysit. The Grandma's will babysit. The Grandpa's too!
I can't wait to tell our families the news. I am planning on Easter sunday. I will be just shy of 9 weeks. I am positive we will have seen the heartbeat(s?) twice. I have told 3 outside people plus my On-line community. I told my trainer, cuz I want her to take it easy on me. I told another supervisor who I really am fond of and I told an employee who I really trust and have come to admire. I want to tell Rachel and probably will tomorrow!
I will be telling my boss when I have my first ultrasound, so probably in 2 weeks. If I can hold out that long. I always see it as job protection when I am pregnant. I want to reassure them that I will stick it out to the end.
I am just so confident this time. Not cocky. Not over. Just a really good feeling.
And today's $store test had a darker line than yesterday! That's a good thing.
Thursday, March 10, 2011
BUT WAIT...
....My Body wants to fuck with me some more this month!
On Tuesday night before I left for school, I saw the spotting had started. I fully expected AF to show over night. Wednesday morning, more spotting and a little bit throughout the day. I had a meeting with my personal trainer and I worked out hard! I continued on my day, fully waiting/expecting the flo to start. Still minimal spotting.
Woke today and took my temp, still up there at 36.71 (at one hour past my 'normal' waking time.) This means that it would probably be about 36.61 had I woke at 6 am and taken it. However, even tho this month's temping has been sporadic and haphazard, my body is pretty consistent with its pre and post-O temps. My cover line is usually between 36.4 and 36.5. So a temp of 36.6 isn't that great, it could indicate a big drop, really.
But I can be excited, can't I?
On Tuesday night before I left for school, I saw the spotting had started. I fully expected AF to show over night. Wednesday morning, more spotting and a little bit throughout the day. I had a meeting with my personal trainer and I worked out hard! I continued on my day, fully waiting/expecting the flo to start. Still minimal spotting.
Woke today and took my temp, still up there at 36.71 (at one hour past my 'normal' waking time.) This means that it would probably be about 36.61 had I woke at 6 am and taken it. However, even tho this month's temping has been sporadic and haphazard, my body is pretty consistent with its pre and post-O temps. My cover line is usually between 36.4 and 36.5. So a temp of 36.6 isn't that great, it could indicate a big drop, really.
But I can be excited, can't I?
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Wow! I'm perfect!
Even with a chemical pregnancy this month, on day 5 of my cycle, I still managed to ovulate on time and at 11DPO, my dear Aunt Flo showed.
**sigh**
I was stupidly optimistic that this month just might be the one. The one after the "miscarriage" where you are SUPER fertile and WHAM-O! Pregnant. But no, not me. Apparently my body does not want to be pregnant. It's just my head and heart.
So in less than a week I get to meet with the Ob and then it is onto the drugs....
**sigh**
I was stupidly optimistic that this month just might be the one. The one after the "miscarriage" where you are SUPER fertile and WHAM-O! Pregnant. But no, not me. Apparently my body does not want to be pregnant. It's just my head and heart.
So in less than a week I get to meet with the Ob and then it is onto the drugs....
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Happy Birthday To Me!
I am 33 today. Not a milestone birthday but it feels difficult none the less. In the next year of my life I have some hopes and goals.
My first goal is simply to lose 30 more pounds. I am still fluctuating at 25 lbs. The biggest thing I need to learn is how to not soothe my feelings or deal with tough times through eating. I had gone 1.5 months with no fast food. The last 2 weeks, that's all I have eaten. And it shows. My face is broken out like no tomorrow, I feel sluggish and blah and I have definately gained some weight. When I put it in perspective, I am definately disappointed in myself and that's okay. I still am struggling to learn this lesson. That the food will not make me feel better. It does not fill the void or undue the anger, bitterness and worry. It does not reduce my stress level and only adds to any guilt I already feel.
Life will always throw curve balls at you and it is how you stand to bat that will determine what base you will get to. Me, I seem to swing wildly with my eyes close and give up before the ump yells "STRIKE THREE" I head back to the bleachers and soothe myself with some fries and chocolate and any other handy food. Learning to bat with my eyes open and accept a "walk" when I've missed those curve balls. And better yet when bat and ball connect and I hit it out of the park and run the bases and score that home run. And there may be scuffed knees along the way and I may want to quit, but I should never give up.
My first goal is simply to lose 30 more pounds. I am still fluctuating at 25 lbs. The biggest thing I need to learn is how to not soothe my feelings or deal with tough times through eating. I had gone 1.5 months with no fast food. The last 2 weeks, that's all I have eaten. And it shows. My face is broken out like no tomorrow, I feel sluggish and blah and I have definately gained some weight. When I put it in perspective, I am definately disappointed in myself and that's okay. I still am struggling to learn this lesson. That the food will not make me feel better. It does not fill the void or undue the anger, bitterness and worry. It does not reduce my stress level and only adds to any guilt I already feel.
Life will always throw curve balls at you and it is how you stand to bat that will determine what base you will get to. Me, I seem to swing wildly with my eyes close and give up before the ump yells "STRIKE THREE" I head back to the bleachers and soothe myself with some fries and chocolate and any other handy food. Learning to bat with my eyes open and accept a "walk" when I've missed those curve balls. And better yet when bat and ball connect and I hit it out of the park and run the bases and score that home run. And there may be scuffed knees along the way and I may want to quit, but I should never give up.
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