A year Ago...

A year ago I had just expereinced my 5th pregnancy loss.  This was a "simple" chemical pregnancy.  A low HCG level that came and went within a matter of days.  No prolonged waiting for numbers to rise or symptoms to present.  I was initially excited but knew within a day that it was another failed pregnancy. Once again, my BFP had come after a period. I just had a feeling to take a test. If I hadn't, I would have never known. Sheesh. I had vowed to not take tests until I missed a period. But I was also addicted to peeing on sticks.

I was upset. For a few days, anyways. I only had a fleeting moment of optimism with that pregnancy. I also had a few things to look forward to.  We were going away for my birthday weekend and then on March 15 I would be seeing my OB/GYN about getting pregnant.  I knew that I may be pregnant by summer. I could hope. I had already had my family Doctor do some initial bloodwork and had the results. Everything was in normal ranges. This was good.  I had spent the last 10 months losing weight, exercising and trying to get baby ready. I had gone off the pill at the end of 2010 in hopes to get my body ready. I took my BBT and I could tell without my thermometer when I had ovulated.  Sometimes I only took my temp after I O'd just to see when my period would start-or to see if maybe I was preggers!

After the chemical pregnancy, I didn't take my temp. I figured my system would be screwed up and it could take a few months to regulate. I half ignored a few fertility signs in the days leading up to our trip. We went to Toronto and had a great time.  I bought a whack load of clothes--size 16 or regular XL at Old Navy. I was so happy in my new body. We ate a nice resturant both nights and got to visit with my good friend.

Over the next 2 weeks, I went about my business and was looking forward to my March 15th appointment.  In the past, March 15th was often a sad day for me.  Many of my losses occured in March and the one that wasn't was due in March. This year I knew March 15th was the begginning of good things. I figured I would be getting a prescription for clo.mi.d and would be able to start it in April. Life was good.

To Be Continued.....